I'll never know how much it cost to see my sin upon that cross. (Here I Am To Worship - 2000 Kingsway's Thankyou Music / PRS)
I've sung a lot of worship songs over the years, but Michael W. Smith's "Worship Again" CD brought me in contact with one of the most beautiful ones I've ever heard, Here I Am To Worship.
Towards the middle of the song, the chorus begins a heart wrenching repetition of "I'll never know how much it cost to see my sin upon that cross." I've never thought about it to be honest. The fact that I'll never know the exact number of blows Christ received in my place, or how much of His blood was substituted for mine, or how painful those nails felt as they were driven into His hands and feet, or the precise amount of time He hung on that cross - enduring the most excruciating death imaginable for me.
Even when I'm in His presence in heaven, I'm sure the full details of that day will remain undisclosed. It wouldn't be in Christ's nature to disclose it, nor would I have the strength to hear it. I'm sure our discussion about that day will be brief. I'll give Him a long hug followed by the most sincere "Thank You!" I've ever said. He'll return the hug and say "Frank, for you, I'd do it all over again."