"I tell you the truth, no one can see the kingdom of God unless he is born again." (John 3-3)
"Born again." "Saved." They're words most people shy away from or apply a negative connotation to. Personally, I do not like describing myself as "born again" or "saved" because I think it gives off an "I'm a part of the exclusive club" air.
The truth is, the club isn't so exclusive. God extends an open invitation to ALL to reconcile themselves to Him through His son, Jesus Christ. Just as through one man's disobedience (Adam) we were all separated from God, through one man's obedience (Christ) we can all be reconciled to Him.
Jesus said, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me" (John 14:6). The choice is ours to make. If we feel we can stand before a perfect God on our own righteousness - God will respect that decision; He has given us all free will. However, be warned. The book of Isaiah describes our righteousness before God as "filthy rags" (Isaiah 64:6) and the book of Romans declares that "there is no one righteous, not even one" (Romans 3:10).
It's a decision that must come from within. It requires no magic words or spells. All that's required is a true repentance and a true desire for the Lord Jesus to come into your life. Jesus said "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened" (Matthew 7:7).
I pray that one day you too will ask. I pray that one day you too will seek. I pray that one day you too will knock. I haven't the words to express the joy, the peace, and the love you will find if you do.